HEY!

hahah bloggie im here to revive u=)

wow haven blogged for like 6 months

was either too bz playing or too bz doing work baz

n i guess when things are going fine, nth's wrong, im happy, the world's happy then yupz no need to fa xie to a blog

so guess im not exactly happy tts y im blogging again ba..

dunno y but been kinda feeling veh lonely inside recently..

its like as if im like stranded upon some island

with no connections or wadsoeva wif the rest of the world..

its like everyones physically there but yet not there..

the fun is there, the laughter is there

but its just.. i dunno empty somewhere somehow

n i was thinking perhaps its gota do wif my personality

coz when i go crazy

i go rilli CRAZY

but frens arent ppl who are always going crazy wif u

but are the ones who can go crazy wif u

as well as 'go silent' wif u

lol..

ok i dunno wad im toking

toking rubbish

n it kinda go worse during hols

when u haf alot of time from not wanting to study for CT

so started to hu si luan xiang alot..

wanted to find someone to tok too but decided not to coz everyone's most prob mugging hard

then ya.. grandmother died n stuffs

m... dunno la wasnt rilli close to her or anything

but its just sad when someone dies coz u will nv get to c them again

ya.. just like granddad

n i was dman unfilial

going arnd telling ppl like 'm.. no la not rilli sad coz not veh close to her compared to my other grandma'

until when it was the last few days of the funeral

then i realise tt i was rilli sad over her death

n i wan to chop myself up for saying those stuffs

n my grandmother is like my dad's mum

n he is like super filial to her..

oh boy... tap running again

m.. yup so pretty emo holiday

thot of alot of stuffs

n im not rilli the kind who tells my parents abt this kinda stuffs

tho i noe they will always be there for mi

so no where to vomit xin shi

then ya..cried like pretty many times during the hols

quite scary come to think of it

lol

like someone wif depression

but ya.. dunno la just mixed feelings

n started wondering wads wrong wif mi,

y m i thinking this way

bla

n i dunno whether its just mi

but i feeling the drifting apart

n im rilli sad

i dunno wad went wrong

its like theres some barrier between us now

weird feeling

rar

m.. yup but i guess its betta now tt sch's started

(excludin the fact tt there was CT lol)

seeing everyone again

toking nonsense

getting distracted wif many other different stuffs

MAYB i was just pmsing

quite a loooooooooooong pms session huh

lol

but this kind of feelings onli started in jc

ok fine mayb its a started-in-jc-pms-session-nonsense

lol

argh

to hell wif these nonsense emo thots

made mi damn sad la

ARGH

i need a hug

*hugs myself*

lol

used to always mock at clarice's overdose of hugs

hugs like ANYONE she sees

ok but now i do think hugs are impt

lol

oh wells~

ha~ ok im feeling good now

just tt my eyes are like half the size of wad they were half an hour ago

lol

alrites tata bloopie u rock =)

hmm but feels kinda weird to blog abt my xin shi

nv used to like doing tt

lol argh HECK